emotional

felt so much emotions pouring out on that day...ran 25 freaking rounds round the field...had so much going through in my head..was just thinking what kinda shit i did during training that day..missing so many idiotic balls..sigh...felt like i deserved to run the rounds..haiz...anyway...it wasn't the running that was sraining my energy..it was wadever that coach had said..she sounded like she was on the verge of tears..didnt know what to do..never seen her like tha before..sigh...felt like i was the one that made her feel that way..sigh..cant think of anything else that will make her so sad...will do better in the future..it's the last year..i want this so badly..i wanna win the championship this year..sigh..will be going to mrs hoy's house to have a talk this saturday..hope it goes well and hopefully will not be as emotional as that day..just felt so pressurized today..sigh...almost felt like exploding with all the test and projects coming along...sigh..shall end her and do something more constructive other than pouring out all my stupid feelings for everyone to just laugh at me..ok..byebye-