is it right?

hmmm.i thought about it for many many many nights.hmm.throughout this whole chinese new year it has been on my mind.somehow when we were in seconday school we were very sure we would not continue softball but its so hard to give it up now.sigh.hmmm.i'm not even sure if this is a right choice.oh gosh.this is so confusing.and how come it was so easy for dixie to say quit la.and i have to think and think and think.hmmm.why cant i just fight for what i want with that much more confidence and determination?where has all that strenght that used to be in me gone to?hmm.i'm just so so so confused right now.hmm.oh gosh.i have one last night to think about it and i wanna make sure i make a decision and not live to regret it.YES.i will not regret any decision that i make.i'm definitely not a regretter.

VAL IS STRONG!
VAL HAS THE POWER TO MAKE DECISIONS!
VAL WILL MAKE RIGHT DECISIONS!

i'm so hoping that by psycho-ing myself to think that i'm capable i will be able to make the decision!YES!i am so gonna make it!

thank you!