you dont need me anymore.

i dont quite know
how to say
how i feel.
those three words
are said too much
they're not enough.


some party we had that night. a pity i couldnt stay longer. isnt it always the case. one day these people will break friendship with me i'm telling you.i just hope it doesnt come that soon.
anyways.i sure had fun the whole time i was there.it was nice.thankyou everyone.
i actually had a lot to blog about but i cant remember everything now.seriously. sometimes i wish life would just stop.stop for me. stop for you.or just stop for anyone for that matter.

life is ironic.how time actually passes so quickly and you dont even know it.it actually sucks.a lot.as much as we try and stay happy cos thats the thing that we're supposed to do.and we all know that we can be happy from just the simple things in life.no matter how small, it can actually make us happy but it's times like this when these things kinda lose their meaning and then you need something so much more than just that. and it takes so much more to make you smile again. cos the hurt within is to deep to remove and the fears that have been etched so deeply in us already are just so hard to erase. at times like this, when you feel so lost and just want to let go of everything and breathe.to actually be able to do the things in life that would make you feel so comfortable and safe. to get lost in that haven and to feel that sense of euphoria once again.i feel tired and sick of this life where it just doesnt seem to go your way and things just turn out completely opposite of how its supposed to be.but then again.is there really a supposed perfect life where everything is according to how you want it to be.i think not.i guess not.so probably the best thing that we can do now is to just numb that feeling and take in the love from others.but then again i have no idea how to do that.teach me.

screw what i just said.life is all one big game.lets just risk every single shit and live it anyways.sometimes when things arent going your way just think again and it might actually be a blessing in disguise.it might just be.

once again, i never fail to sound like an emo kid.time and time again.

the rain is almost here and my house is getting dark.and as much as i like the rain at times, it just makes me wanna cry now cos tears and rain just mix so well together.and as the wind blow, i sit at my window and look out to see the things that have happened so far.i start to cry.